She could imagine what Xander would say if he ever found out about this. It wouldn't be pleasant, and she could envisage him never speaking to her again. Xander had strong feelings about such things.
What was this thing she had for vampires? At least Angel had a soul, but this? God, she was such a deviant. But the desire had been so strong - not for Spike, but for something, anything, to make her feel alive.
This could never happen again. And when had they destroyed the house?